Monday 6 December 2010

depression

OK, I'm pissed off about not going to Berlin this weekend, plus l have to go back to work on Wednesday. Therefore...signs of depression in my world (look away if easily offended)

Can't be bothered getting out of bed, so therefore stay in it while it is still warm (for however long that takes)
My best mate Nozzer (the indoor rabbit) is going to die very soon, which upsets me a lot
Can't be bothered listening to music, but happy enough to spend the hours doing fuck all apart from watching any kind of crap on TV
Wank (personal -Mrs Palm and her five lovely daughters) ? Pah! Can't be bothered.
Being happy with a blow job or wank, rather than having to make any effort.
Looking at the computer monitor and keyboard and thinking "what am l doing here?, why bother?" Anything to make the day go by
Looking at all your possessions and wondering why you have them, what's the point.
Looking at all the CD's and books and realising you will never have the chance to hear them all, as you are very very old
Realising young girls no longer fancy you (OK l am kidding on that one - I fool myself into thinking)
Jobs, lifestyle, future...who cares
No large network of family or friends (through choice)
No kids (too much hassle and way too selfish)
Everyone else changing (having or trying to have kids)
Hating work, no matter how easy it is
Not knowing who you can trust
Looking forward to death (or at least not being scared of it)
Drinking way more than usual (but not even being bothered to buy or do the drugs)
Christmas - not bothered, which means no great change, although l started feeling better about them a few years ago (unlike when l was a kid)
Still getting loads of music, but not finding the time to listen to it
Thinking heart attack rather than life - OK if it's painless

Right, that's the end of the depressive message - I would like to say l feel much better now. l know what l need, more money and less work.
I do not blame the government or God for a change, l blame my parents.
Scumbags!! (although they knew no better)


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